i would like my beer chilled.

huh? cold ones please:

if you happen to see a bot moving around aimlessly, please bring him home? he is homesick. i missed him.

it's a little wonder

i ponder:

What would i have been if i wasn't such a clubber? Or rather someone who does not know how to socialize at all? A dull quiet person i'll be. I probably have only three good friends. Our only leisure in life is to catch up with the latest movies in town.

Maybe maybe... once in while, we'll passed by this noisy area which we have no idea why lots of great looking people are in there for. We will tease and nudge each other to go in and grab one of them out.

Our favorite hang-out place will be the library. Occasionally, we maybe might have some spare time for a sip of kopi or teh (whichever is nearer to our homes). I don't have an English name and people have a hard time pronouncing my chinese name.

i find a lovely cottage and settle my old age there. i'm not lonely, no worries. I've my cows, sheep, horses, cats, dogs and pigs to keep my boring yet enriching life entertain. i will then die alone in my house peacefully with my favorite pillow.

I look down from above (because i'm a good and boring person on earth, that's why i get to go up!) seeing all the lovely things that i've missed when i'm alive. What a pity. i shall rejoice with limited memories that i've collected during my days.

ImHigh.pte.ltd:

May the Champagne keep flowing ... endlessly:

I am quite certain that i have (with my enhances liver) gone through gallons and gallons of alcohol, hundreds of Zouk hot dogs (the best in town) and at least fifty espisodes of delirium. All this, while dancing madly to the best DJs in town (and from all over the world) nearly every weekend! Fantastic! AND SOME THINGS JUST DON"T CHANGE AT ALL: I want my Midori-7up!

All the generation of clubbers go from gawky teenagers to well-travelled arty goers of the world. (albeit drunken, mad individuals).

Small Minds Discuss People

the power of information:

Most of the time, our talk is a positive attribute. It helps us make friends and helps others feel included in a group. But sometimes, we get so caught up in talking and "doing what comes naturally" that we forget to think before we open our mouths.

"The kindest word in all the world is the unkind word, unsaid."

Here's something to think about the next time we feel the urge to talk about someone, or are in the presence of someone talking about someone else.

Do I know this to be the absolute truth? How well-informed am I about this person or this situation? Am I qualified to make a judgement? Did I get this news from someone else? How reliable is that person? Is he or she consistently gossiping about others? Am I pointing out the flaws of others in order to distract people from my own? Would I want this news shared about me?

"The tongue of the wise commends knowledge, but the mouth of the fool gushes folly."

It's extremely difficult to hold our tongues - very often we think of it as "just making conversation". But think about what your words are doing. Are you muddying the person's reputation just for a bit of "conversation"? What are your words doing to you? What are they doing to other people's perception of you?

The next time you're drawn into a conversation, watch what you say. What are you discussing? What impressions are you forming, intentionally or unintentionally? Are you preoccupied with the trivial pursuits, trials and defeats of other people instead of focusing on your own flaws and working on them to improve yourself? Are you a walking soap opera?

"Great minds discuss ideas. Average minds discuss events. Small minds discuss people."

i'm still breaking

a thousand puff(s):

Life is bored.
Throw me a hula-hoop.
Let me twist that bad boy and make me a mama-san.

Ashley, the runaway pig has a new boyfriend, King.
Ash does not seem as pure as her features.
She can fake things up. Poor King.

I need my everyday dosage of alcohol and games.
i am addicted to them, i'm drowning in my dreams.
it's all Rachel's fault. If you see her, please give her a kiss to punish her.

I miss my love letters.
I have a missing love letter out in the open.
can Someone drop me a love letter? i give you Ashley.

8 hours of hits

crazy wacky run downs:

A bottle of whiskey down to 1/4.
no one was drunk nor high.
Instead, there were two crazy women hooking up to a Xbox game,
the whole night. Continuously for 8 hours.

You could hear sounds of game and two women's laughters,
slapping & gigles. The mutual bond has been formed.
If you're there, it's easily seen at what's going on between both.

Sadly, there is always a ending to every beginning.
So, goodbye(s) were said and hope(s) were planted.

Wishing that everyday could be as spicy as the friendship.

Twin(sha-shine), Tweety(BeijingGuNiang).

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mind, body & soul

plugins:

All the time we've spent in Love...
i didn't really know you loved me until you danced with me...
in public... even though you didn't know how to.

Even if i never get that chance again,
it was worth the awkward tumbling to know
what you've said is true.

may i? again?

the theme song for LOVE

good adhesion:

Why this world, festivals seems to be for couples only?
why not take out a special day for lonely souls?

sometimes in life, you need to miss a few things to notice the bigger value

i am happy for now. and i want this feeling to stay. =)

wicked Saturday

car crashing:

A normal day with the normal YET exciting people.
with the help of alcohol, it does boost our friendship to another level.
aimlessly, restlessly, nua-lessly.

i could not think of a much better way to spend this day off.
it was a beautiful ending. too.

sleepy is my middle name.

zzz:

the day is l-o-n-g.
my mind is empty.
and so is my heart.

i will be happier.
my mind is full.
so is my heart.

i am happy.
my mind is gone.
where is my heart?

words kill:

words spread:

i don't like to use foul language out loud...
Instead, i write it down as many times as i can
on a piece of paper whenever i feel the urge.
after that, i immediately destroy the paper
so no one will find it.

i know there's hope for you.[forgive myself.]

i am sleepy...

A world of 'ZZZ'

Dearest finger,
please get well soon. i can't bear to see you bleed non-stop.
it HURTS me so much that i dread showering for the first time in life.
i can't typeeeeeee propeeeerly with you being so injured.
you know how much i LOVE you although i seem biased to the right(s).
you're part of me, how could i not adore you. You're one of my favorites, oh my Index.
Get well soon and i get tons of ladies to kiss you,ya?

Smacks,
Your dearest owner.

what is andro?

dictionary.com:

an·drog·y·nous ( P ) Pronunciation Key (n-drj-ns)adj. Biology.
Having both female and male characteristics; hermaphroditic.
Being neither distinguishably masculine nor feminine, as in dress, appearance, or behavior.

i am andro.

missing x'mas

the art of words:

Once upon a time, in the small little red dot, there were this issue going on:
BeijingGu-niang:i met this girl sitting beside me who's also a fencer.
angmoh-ahLian:a friendster? I am also a friendster! what's the big deal? half the population in Singapore are all friendster!

BeijingGu-niang:My mum is a vegetarian.
angmoh-ahLian:So, you're mum is a Buddhist?
BeijingGu-niang:police?
angmoh-ahLian: BuddhistBuddhistBuddhist!

angmoh-ahLian:Ikea! Here i come!
*stare*stare*[pretending i'm not around her!]

i love being around her! i make her laugh! haha!

A few more hours to doom-day:

i have sexual fantasies about vampires:

Do you believe in a town called 'Sample'?
Then as you're driving into the town, there's a sign that goes:

"Urine[you're in] Sample"

Hope;hope;hope

Sex, lies & audio tapes:

*phew* A great day indeed. So, it is, this blog seems like a communication bridge for my best friends and me. Thanks Ruru for the talk. i'm so glad you ladies knew about it. Maybe that's the best to know it through this way.

So, what is left now, is my family members. It's seriously not easily coming out of the closet. Friends are understanding, but what about family? My brother sub-consciously knew about it, i guess the way i behave, my cousins should more or less knew about it.

Anyway, given another year or so, i'll be moving out. It's for the best. I can have my own privacy and most of all, i can be really independent. My biggest fear is actually gone now. i am sure floating. heh.

8 years of friendship, it's not easy pulling through. Journey back the times when we often had quarrels over sensitive issues and those silly rumours, boy-girl relationships. It sure proves how strong our bond is now. i wish for the next 10,20,30... years down, i could attend weddings of you,ladies, god-mum to whoever babies. =)

Life has never been better. So, now, my degree and so, my working life. It's another stage to conquer. it's dangerously fun! that's what i called it. i often see myself back-packing down the lanes of Europe, middle east, China... Silk Road. Geez! All those beautiful countries!

Down to earth, things are simply too superficial in some ways. Humans, homo-sepains, monkey-ancestors, we're so perfect in some sense, but when it comes to emotional-wise. WE'RE A PIECE OF CRAP! haha.

okay,lesson learnt. Try not to keep too much things within yourself. You'll explode! oh,F.Y.I: mabel wants me to change this blog template. she's just a fussy old lady. tsk tsk! haha.

20th Dec 1984

Someone had been born to this world:

i am twen-teen years old. i am currently single. i am doing my Bachelor Degree. I am generous & humourous.[My best traits.] I am confident overall. I am not good looking, but i make an effort to dress well.

i know my pro(s) and con(s). I AM VIAN. i love to smell good. i love money & adore spending them. i love to mop floor. i love music.[i can't travel without them.] i love gadgets. i will buy & collect them. Apple, my best friend.

i can't stand smelly people. i adore scents. i'll always have a pack of Lakerol[strawberry] on me. i love it when people compliments me.[whatever ways]. i like to tease girls/women & flirt with them. i am able to grab their moods and character pretty fast.[2weeks]

i am blessed. i hate liars even though i can be one at times. i will go all out for my friends. i expect them to do the same for me as well. i think big but hardly put into actions. i'm always seeking for love, because i yearn for it every day.

i am very lucky. i know. And often, i took it for granted. Out of so many people i knew, only minority know that i'm a homosexuality. i'm proud to be one. I can't be with a man although there seems to be quite a few good ones left.

i like men to be my best friend. i am too ambitious for my own good. Man can't stand woman this way. i love my life to be care-free. i live my rules not others. i control my life not others. i lead my way not others.

Hello. my name is Ellen. Pleased to meet you.

i am superman.

best of me.

Sex with good feelings is like being on top of the world and wanting to have the world as well. i'm not saying that pure sex with no strings attached is NO good but i'm different.

Some people can just have that amount of joy without giving out their feelings, not me. i feel that i'm this type of woman who so much feelings and emotions to explode. Whether i use it correctly or appropriately is a different issue altogether.

i started off being a faithful person, i want to stay this way. i can't be a player for nuts. it takes off half my life-span! haha. it's fun tho to try something this exciting.

you've to see this thing about me is that i'm SUPER fickle[according to Ms Goh]. Well, i admit. =) when it comes to matters of heart, i'm all twirly and queer. I am queer by the way.

A proud one for sure! A gay-gay. haha. i'm fighting this demon of mine in my heart. When i met someone really good in all aspects of mine, i choose to let go because i'm SUPER shallow.

maybe i'm really confused on what i want. the right one might pop up just RIGHT-IN-FRONT of me and i can't see a single pixel on her. i'm that numb dumb. i miss that special feelings in my heart.

it's hollow now. So empty at night that i feel the coldness in me. Brrr...

Make me a better person and know who I am before I try and know someone else and expect them to know me.

The fat facts

Happy Birthday, Ms Mabel

23 is good age to start planning for something big in life. i'm waiting to be part of your life. =)

Tip of the day: A moment on the lips , forever on the hips.

where arts meets life

where inspirations meets conversations:

your cruelty almost killed me. Thank you for making me stronger.

i am a brand new mean machine! meow*