Wednesday, December 05, 2012

It's 2!

Dear dragon,

Happy 2 years anniversary.

Here I am sitting at the Bay by MBS. I am sipping on a glass of ice tea, watching the world pass by slowly. The weather is alright. It drizzled earlier on. I'm looking at the high rise buildings from where I am seated. Year 2013 is coming. Looking back at our 2 years, I want to thank you for so many things.

You made me a better person. I really want to thank you for the breakup. If its not for this heart break, I will never see myself grow. I have been doing a lot of soul searching. You're right. I am in denial too! How can I just convince myself that love is all we need? How stupid and naive!

I was caught in our love bubble, thinking we are happily in love. These 2 years made me see the world and see what I really need in a relationship. Thank you for waking me up. I've seen such a clearer side of what happen.

It took me 28 years of my life to see what I am lacking in life. We had some happy moments, don't we? The way we looked at each other in the mornings, the way we like to pamper each other with our  own way of care and concerns, the feeling of wanting to be there for that person.

Thank you for the wonderful 2 years.

I've moved on. Year 2012 has not been kind to me. I became a egoistic person, a hot air person, all is me myself and I. I have no regards of anyone's feelings. I hated myself this year. I am an angry hulk. Life has always been unfair but I took it the hard way. Hence, why this relationship ends.

Now, I am looking forward to year 2013. I have so much plans and matters to look forward to. I really want to push my limits. I also plan to run a 10km marathon. I've been running. And I did not stop! It's all in the mind. Loving my aching muscles. I revamped my room. So much spacious for the babies to roam and run around, cleaned out my wardrobe.

Now my head is clearer. I had a one to one chat with my daddy. I told him about my plans. He agrees. And I think he is proud to have me back as a daughter again, I drew up my next 1 year plan. He is so happy. We went shopping and talked about everything. I feel I am back on track.

Thank you for being with me when I am down and out.

Now, I wish you all the best and may life treats you well too.

Take care. Live hard and love hard.

Getting on just fine,
Ninja

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

<< Home