Order a Ferrari today.

You stand to win a Lorry:

We had a meeting today. It was not as bad as i imagine. I was actually more like a get-to-know sessions than a de-briefing. i am really tired now. bascially, we know that Daniel in the transport area likes our beloved Rachel.

Congrats, dearest. You got your lorry now! haha. Anyway, just chill lah. I am actually starting to adore my work. =) Loving the island. Although alot of spies. Still bearable. =) My brother just got himself the PSP. He is a lucky ass!

I was hook to this game 'Burn-out'. i'm running out of words as my brain are shutting down. Good night folks! Long day tomorrow!

Sizzling Revelry

Raving on my Sexuality:

Given a second chance, would i choose to be a woman or man? I pick to be a woman again. Maybe God knows, sometimes, i drag so much to be a woman. He issue me a 6 months- menstrual period. Thank God for that warranty. Who knows, i might be cursing him on every week of the month for making me suffer and lost that amount of blood to damnit-white-piece-of-pad that damnit-cost-so-much!

Woman has plenty of privileges that man are dying for. I for sure love those kind of pampering from SOME guys. Given the fact, i love to order/push/force man around on offical terms. I hate it when man think that they're able to perform better than woman. I'm talking in all forms. Thank God again, man can't have multiple orgasms. That would be taking the only speciality that woman are having.

I do adore man who pamper me in the right way. Timo [a sweet man.], my future husband knows that pretty well. All in all, i like to be in control of situations. I need to know where and what i am doing before the whole dirty math problem gets in. [NO sex unless we are sure of where we are.]

Someone mention that i am boring. Nah. I think otherwise. I love being exclusive to my partner. Okay, i admit, i fantisize on being a player but it's too much for my heart and not to mention my pockets. They'll scream. I'm too nice to deserve that kind of treatment. haha!

Who does not want to be all cuddly with 2 or more women. It's just some far-stretchy dreams. I be myself. I'm happier. Plus i feel myself being sensitive towards woman more than man. I would take more efforts in knowing them and understand their needs.

The feeling of taking care a being makes me feel all warmth up. I'm a care-taker?! haha. I'm guessing, after my degree, i might be working overseas. And trying to understand more of myself and less of others. i've to be a bit more defensive towards myself. Myself have not really been pleased with me.

I am happy. But calculating in a elaborate way, it's just satisfactory. =) Okay. My dad is fussing over the goldfish, ah-pui [ah-fat.]. he seems to call everyone that nick including me. So, when he passes by the tank every now and then, he will call out "ah-pui". I will answer that call. shrugs.

Just one off day and work tomorrow again. Ranting on and on... i'm getting old! haha! Readers, go and sleep. =)

crazy doggy carnival

guess who got bitten?

I've been counting my drinking days. It's still the same. I did not cut down at all! haha. It's a weekly thing. 3 times beer per week. It helps generate blood and be so dead that you've no idea what type of dreams you're having. [Psst: Normally, i remember my dreams very clearly.]

We had free rides on the luge and well, racing is the key component. Rach always got bully by Uncle Don and me. haha. hmm. what else have i missed out on my day's event? Lots of babes. Not to deny the fact that, mostly are all foreigners. tsk tsk. pity pity. pity me. haha!

Right. i saw Jessica that day. it was on Saturday. hmm. Surprised. She is attached and well, i had a letter for her but i kept it. Rach took the chocolates and ate it. She is a pig. I have no good vibes on her either. So, let's move on, my readers... hmm...

Today was a harsh day. My legs are so beat from running with my childhood friend, Jasen's dog, Shasha. We took lots of pictures together. =) She is so cute. I happened to know that he is gay. haha. Suddenly, i feel so bonded with him! haha. =)

What should my life be after my degree? I'm going to apply to be in the Luge area. I will get all tan and maybe i drag my old body for a run after the whole day of tanning. Then i get all sexy and nice! whaha!

okay. i'm tired. shut up. good night my dearest exhausted legs. rest well. =)

breakfast or me?

Rachel bully me day:

A busy day again. What's so new in my life? I'm so bored. i'm not boring. READ CAREFULLY. No babe today. A few hunks but Rach has spotted this andro woman. She is working as an operation manager for Coffee bean.

Aiya. As usual lah. I kpo what. Sure will go and find out about that woman. I did. And her name was Sandy. Thanks to her Colleague. =) Rach has been a bully towards me. Despite the fact that i make breakfast for her and that i'm so nice and sweet to her.

She basically just have to whine and she just get her ways. Tsk tsk. But i still love you. We had a great chat today. haha. Rachel. Rachel. Rachel. One day, we two will be so OLD that you can no longer step on my feet and i will be laughing at you through my gums.

I'm going to Sunset Bay tomorrow to chill. Join me if you like. I don't own the beach. Oh. I'm seeing Jessica also. haha! =) Ahh... I got Danielle's no today. i'm just lucky lah. =) Volley. Volley. Volley. I love the Sun! Kiss me.

must see to believe

hello:

Hello Sire/Madm/Ladies, would you like to have the map?

The babe of the day is Jasmine. =) She is an Aussie, husband working as a pilot. She came down with her sister, Sandra and friend, Amy. =) We're going to select the babe on our every working day.

Ya. it's boring. that's why. =)

Hello Jessica. Semi-bye Danielle.

Volley me to your heart:

How should i descibe my day? I'm on cloud no. 99. =) I ended work, tired and sloggy. i'm in a good mood. very very good mood. okay. you got the point. But still must emphazise! haha! Short entry:[i hope]

I spoke to Danielle today. We were on the same bus and well, she smokes and had a tongue stud. Saucy. =) She is really bubbly. haha. i was pretty tired and wanted to relax on the bus but she is so friendly.

The sales was better than yesterday but it's still very bad compared to VAC (Visitor Arrival Centre). Rach and me are on shifts today. I was in a good mood. I don't know why. Maybe the weather it's really cooling and soothing.

The people at the sale ticketing counter are all so warm. I like them. Sha-shine came down and was entered F.O.C. =) We went down to Bk [Burger King] to have our lunch within the island. After our full lunch, we headed down to the beaches to chill.

We stopped at Sunset Bay and had our beer. We spotted this group of beach volley(s) girls. Sexy. =) I, particularly had my eyes fixed on this girl. She is just this girl. I had her name, thanks to Rach.

A note was passed to Girl [thanks to rach, second thanks]
Girl read note and discussed with friend. [Twin saw that]
Girl Walked towards me. [my heart stopped]
Me waved at Girl. [to get my heart start pumping]
Girl extended her hand to me. [i stopped breathing]
Girl chatted up. [i grin]
Girl say 'bye'. [i was dancing inside]

Hello Jessica From NUS(National University of Singapore). SO, anyone who knows this girl from NUS, studying CNM (Communications, New Media), please do tag on my board. PLEASE! haha!

i'm happy like a toad!

ka-ching!

it's the same old season again:

I missed blogging for a day. I was out with Neal & Rach for a little outing yesterday. I was supposed to catch Harry Potter but Potter was full! Fine. I shall tune in next week then. I was off yesterday. It did not turn out to be much of a off-day due to the fact that i spent half a day out.

The day was ended when we went drinking at Ice Cold Beer. I was so tired at the strike of 2200 hours. I'm used to sleeping early and waking early. My body system seems to be on the right track again. =)

Everyday, i will wake up at this hour to pee. It's my wee-wee alarm. I'm always so afraid to look at the time on my mobile phone. What if it's the '3am'? (puzzled? Go and catch The Exorcism Of Emily Rose.)

Today, work was a slow business. It rained the whole day. I was working at a total new environment. The people were friendly. I even got myself a poster. haha. Thanks Ernie! If it continues to rain tomorrow. i should consider on bringing my sleeping bag along.

As the new working place is at the hill top. It's utterly cold. Brrrr. I had my wind-breaker with me. it was the worst day since i started working. I wish for Sun tomorrow. Danielle? nah. I was on the same bus with her. She gave out straight vibes. Ya. okay, Rach, you're right.

My book: The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera. i have yet to embark on the 100th page! It's very bad. I force myself to read every night before i doze off. I ended up sleeping with the book next to me.

Money is running low. And worst. I have a good friend's birthday coming up before mine. For me? I need to worry about Zouk-Out first before anything happen. bad. very. bad. I'm working in the morning at Sentosa then i shall slack till 6pm for my shift at Zouk-Out. I shall party till the very next morning and off to work at Sentosa.

Okay. At the end of that day, i'll be worst than a Zombie. Speaking of Zombies, Rach was in a foul mood yesterday. She lost her temp. pass and had to pay $10.50 for it. tsk tsk. I kept saying "it's not your fault". "It is my fault!", she just cut off my kindness. u bitch!

Just saying it to make you feel better lah! Duh! Anyway, we got to Cineleisure, met up with Neal and passed by this little stall, it sells all kind of cute keychains. We thought, might as well, make the lady happen and we forked out one keychain for her.

Not to mention that wide smile on her after we purchased that Zombie and Gay looking-wooden-stick-round men! haha. Wait. Did she say 'Thank you' to us? hmm. haha. Anyway, wish me luck tomorrow. It's a long day...

Time is 2200 hours. and. i am so sleepy. i actually had a nap this evening. But my eye-lids are shutting down. ... till then. happy holidays all! =)

a box full of flowers

what is an 'impulse'?

The days have been really hectic. I was complaining to Rach that i have no time to blog. She says that my blog has no interesting entries. Fine. i don't want to be famous like Xiaxue or the latest on-going-Dawn Yeo.

It's my blog. it can be a little artistic at times, a little boring, a twist of complication, a bit of the norm-dose. So? I'm happy to note every little details down. =) I've been squeeze to the very last drops of my energy.

Sentosa: a place where all sorts of people gather. The smelly, the pretty, the gorgeous(not yet arrive; anticipating), the handsome, the grumpy, the noisy, the nice, the attitude, the friendly...etc. i think i have listed more than enough. you paint the picture yourself.

Everyday, the crowd will be different. Oh. Danielle. My eye-candy. We/ I finally bump into her today. Everyday i would miss (literally) her on her way back home or to work. That's mainly because we're spiltted into two groups. Obviously, she is in the different group as me.

Ya, as i was typing, i bumped into her today. BUT was hindered by this 'sour plum' girl called Joanne. She is okay. But she was yakking all the time and Danielle got kinda smitten. She was over-shadowed.

I just leave it to fate then. She looks really straight. Rach's 'gay-da' says so too. I just see how it goes. The following week, i will get a chance to work with her. =) Awesome! Life's been really great for me. I'm looking forward to my birthday. Seriously.

Somehow, i no longer miss the 'old' me. I'm actually liking the 'new' me now. I explain further down in my blog if i have some bits and pieces of energy left. =) Till then, folks, stay UP!

granny Mo

i am so tired:

The key point of this job of mine is to interact with the people around you. So, there goes my voice and my energy. It just take half a day for my energy to run off and now i am so tired to blog.

Monday is my off-day. so maybe till then, i shall add more interesting entries. As for now, sleep is really inportant to me.

Bless me and the people who invade my space during work. =)

chair-lift everyday for health

fly your way up:

Sentosa is a no joke, big island. I was late 5 minutes for work today. So, punch in my card and i've offically became the islander. It was fun. Donovan is a funny man. We can pretty much click. As for Rachel? She just stand tall and invade into my personal space whole day long.

She has mastered on how to squeeze my arms. It will leave a red mark after that. Thanks Rach! Oh, the red-bean thing sucks! eeks! pui* bleh* haha. RACHEL BULLY ME! Donovan is going to have a share of that enjoyment too.

Be it lah. I'm too irresistible! haha! Too many bikini(s) & ang moh(s) & chee-na(s) & indian(s) & local(s) & kid(s) & noisy, smelly people! People, smell good before you step out of a door! goodness gracious me!

The day was okay. I had fun. TOTALLY. You know, a job that is not bored and you can 'people-see' everyday? it's a wonderful job. So, friends. who love tanning or sentosa. please come down and visit me. i'll be around the island. =) it's a request not an order. haha.

i'm switching back my sleeping hours very fast and pretty good too. =) sweet dreams to me.

A good 10 minutes.

Stare blank:

i was reading and a flash outside my window caught my attention. I got out of bed and dragged my lazy bones towards the window. I stared at the dark grey sky for a good ten minutes. I saw flashes of lightning and heard roars of thunder.

it came from the nearby neighbour of ours, Malaysia. When the lightning strikes, it lighted up the entire sky. it was a stare-blank moment. i wanted to grab my camera and start snapping but my lazy bones are in the way. So, next time then. =)

It was an exhausted day for me and rach. We went around Sentosa. The merlion, The sky Tower, The images of Singapore, The fort Siloso... It's either a slope way up or countless stairs to conquer. my knees are so weak now.

I had fun. Rach got freaked out when the audio in one of the tunnel suddenly switched on, she jumped and had a fright. i was laughing behind. it's hilarious la. well, tomorrow is the day where we really start our ass kicking.

Eh. Hi. Danielle. I'm Ellen here. *broad smile*
Hello. Ellen here. You're Danielle, right? *grin*
arlo la. you danielle rite? me ellen lah! *heh*

sweet lord. please help me. =)

bad apple?

which one do you own?

Dear Apple,
What? Another new iPod in the market? How many iPod incarnations do we need in a year? I haven't even purchase my Ipod Nano and the fifth-generation iPod is already teasing me on the shelf, seducing my wallet (it's a beauty, by the way). Still, it's ridiculous that my gratification from anything iPod only lasts two months these days.

We know that the widly successful iPods command 90% of the digital audio player market, but why is Apple torturing us (and my wallet) with four new releases in a single year? (Creative Technologies have 3% of the market, but at least they come with replaceable batteries.)

Why are folks so mad for iPods? Why are iPods always something of an addiction? You make the ads look better with each device. The music's always sexier and the celeb-endorsers, bigger (come on, how did you land U2?). There's always something prettier, a wee-bit better, and somewhat cheaper. Apple is like the Pied Piper, egging us on...

The iPod Photo released in Feb had a nifty color screen. 4 months on, every iPod had one, for less money. Yet, another 4 months later, the fifth-generation iPod was announced, with color screen and video playback! Fans at the lower end were not spared, either: iPod Shuffle (screen-less) was announced in January, the iPod mini range was refreshed the following month, then dropped in September when the iPod Nano was announced --- small, slim, with color screen!

I have already acquired iPod (1st generation), iPod Mini (discontinued) & iPod Shuffle. So, i'm wondering... will my iPod(s) ever feel secure in the faith that i'll never lust for another 2 months down the road?

Yours,
Gadget Grouch

take 2

positive+positive=negative:

i went out with the tall girl. We catched this movie [T.E.O.E.R]. i was covering my face half the time. i remember saying:"i hate you, rach!" haha! that girl bought a red pillow. i wanted her to get the yellow one instead. stubborn bitch.

oh! we caught this farang (Thai for westerner or Caucasian), gweilo (Hong Kong/Cantonese term which literally means foreign devil), mat salleh (Malay term to mean westerner or Caucasian) and angmoh (Hokkien term which literally means red hair). Anyway, you get it already.

i was giving tons of names to him. haha. namely, "the gardener", "the fishmonger", "the (something unpleasant.)". She was all into him lah. but never mind lah. i still love you. haha. We're going to conquer Sentosa pretty soon. haha!

We ate a little over and rach kept puking la! So irritating. She was so violent when we arrive at the Ice Cold Beer. It must have been the alcohol that is kicking into her! My arms are so pain now! pui*

okay. i'm sleeping. we bumped into Sly & Rebecca tan & that fat ass. haha! anyway, i don't like her. bitch about it.

let me draw you a romantic map, love

tears as poem:

Reality hits. School holidays are here. i'm off to my interview tomorrow. Everyday, i would look down at my small hands and wonder. What kind of archivements will these pair of chubby hands create? I will then give alittle smirk laughter.[which i'm good at.]

I was planning my 21st birthday. i was writing down the names of friends that i wanted to invite. As i held my pen, i'm lost. What kind of 'friends' should i invite? No, i'm not aiming for the gifts or the ang boa(s). But i do really want to have fun on this day with all my love ones.

I'm lost but i still scribbled some names down. Just some names that i've been in contact with and those we can really chat. i've 38 names. Out of 38, maybe it's less than 15 that i ... . I don't know. Maybe it's really not that important anymore.

This is depressing. haha. it's ok la. i'll get over it. haha.
Shoo!

facts?

laugh a little:

You know, Donald Duck never wear pants.
But, whenever he's getting out of the shower,
he always put a towel around his waist.

I mean, what is that about?

we can be normal.

lovely lovely lovely

the b-day girl.

the porn... OOPS prom Queen! haha

timo got us.

i think he is reading porn. hmmm. most likely.

i'm ready for heaven, God.

i'm shit serious!

breasts attack!

she is the one that... *sob sob*

who's the clown?

i did not realised that there're woman behind me!

she is better at that!

i hate her(not)! haha.

the big thing

ya.welcome to our sane world!

someone famous is dead

i have no idea. haha.

eat shit eat!

mum & son

the x-factor we have.

flashy time:

what do we have here?


family reunion =)

let's talk about friends

friendship:

As we grow older, do you tend to realise that it's harder to find someone that can really click and bond and most importantly understands you. It's good enough to have 1 good friend.

Lucky for me, i have more than that. I'm grateful. How do we go about making sure that the friendship that we hold are strong? keeping basic contacts? i don't know. haha.

Human change.

i'm turning 21! i'm seriously freaking out! haha. This year, 2005 hasn't been a smooth-sailing year for me. Hopefully, this december baby here can find some good loving next year. haha.

heaven knows...

Sushi Fear Factor

NO more:

Every week, per eating session is Sushi.It's no joking matter. i'm no longer in love with the fresh, slime, tofu, egg-like rice dumplings. Okay. i need a break with the sushi. So, dearest twin and Rachie, no sushi next week? =)

I'm wondering should i blog like a normal journal, updating my daily life or when something exciting comes into my life...[hardly]. hack it! it's my blog. i shall jot it the 'ellen' way! =) Today was an Okay day.

I think i fell in love with myself and my shades. What's new. Timo, Sanch, Lala, Bel, Liish were all there. It's a normal gathering. Motive of outing: Liish's birthday. She's 24. Oh. I was waiting for Timo this evening at Orchard Mrt Station.

My oh my, we should go there to 'people see' more! Gorgeous! I saw Michelle Chong. Sweet oh Jesus! Lala wanted to get a tattoo and bel suggested to have two printed hair tails at the back. Ya, she can be a meanie cat!

I chatted with Charlene for a little while:[she is cute.]:
We bitchED for the first few minutes till she prompted something that caught my attention:

Char: i'm more of a sit at wala wala, chill, listen to live band and have some drinks type
porn star: hey. u go wala wala ah? we shd go tog la
char: yeah

We started bitching on Wala, and the band, The unXpected. She let in so many insiders' secrets! Pretty cool ah! haha. We love the common drinks and the same place! haha. Okay. I've your cd burned! =)

porn star: i send rach one of the wala song, she dun like leh
Char:really? her taste diff
porn star: she act high class la. whaha. Shhh
Char:coz she was telling me abt this pub that plays rock music and she dont like
porn star:which one? harrys?
Char:no...er i think it was Ice cold beer?
porn star: ohh. ya!
Char:but i like rock
porn star: i bot her dere, ice cold beer.
Char:i love rock lah
I typed the most amazing thing:
porn star:mayb u shd b my gd fren la, char! whaha.i dump rach!haha
So did she:
Char:HAHAHA.eh.....pls lor.i dont want rach and linette coming after me.hahhahahaha.
Char: ok lah nxt time can still hang out lah, listen to gd rock music.i guess thats why we like Unexpected.

Ya. tsk tsk. We started to talk about the food in the clubs and she got hungry and went off in search of her food. And as for me? I'm tired. I got a student meeting with Wolfy, my dean at 10 am.[rach must be laughing at me.] tsk tsk.

Go away. i want to sleep already.

i can't say much

fell in love:

it must have been an accident.
the sky is jealous.
i wonder what's hidden in the shell.

Timo was telling me that God does not want him to be happy. I wanted to console him so much. Instead i find myself a loser at this end too. I too, did question myself, when was the last time, i was really happy in my relationship.

the love story of the bird and fish.
the beautiful coral of mine.
So, are you crying for the sea?

Kaini, Yingru, Felicia, Ziyun, Grace & Xueli. 8 years, has it been that long? I wasn't even in the same class with you girls and i got stuck with you, all the wonderful souls. We're always there for one's birthday celebrations. Especially, this year, it's our 21st! =)

All of you meant so much to me. I can never thank you girls enough for the understandings. i wish i can really open up to you girls. it's hard. but i will try. it's not easy. but i'll try again. if i ever fall, i know you girls will be there for me.

the romantic handphone.
i've paste all the fallen leaves back.
the stubborn tears scattered everywhere.

file # 34 artists.

Instructions on how to be a Con Artist.

1. When a stranger inside the gallery approaches and talks to you.

Pick words from below.

Aesthetics, Praxis, Space, Invade, Evade, Rhetorical, Existence, Repulsion, Profusely, Pretensions, Dynamic, Democratization, Connivance, Movement, Alter ego, Adapt, Stimulation, Extension, Create, Modify, Resistance, Political, Subconscious, Instinct, Evolved, Metaphor, Extension, Desire, Society, Intrusion. Desolate. Theory.

*The (fill in the blanks) (put verb here) (Adjectives) was (insert genre here) myself.

When attacked with unfamiliarity. Retort with words below:

Key words you should learn: Marxism, Avant-garde, Surreal, Hyperreal, Simulacra, Cyberpunk, Postmodernism, Renaissance, Opt, Dada, Abstract, Holocaust, Modern.

2. Always remember the common isms (cubism perhaps)

3. When someone tells you that the art is dead. Interrogate by stating "Marcel Duchamp was a big boy cross dresser?" put on a little smirk. If he browses on your face with a tinge of disgust. Say "Oh! I love Duchamp that urinal was a breakthrough"

4. On Music:

Don't tell anyone that you like Kelly Clarkson. Lie by saying "I used to listen to David Byrne nevertheless I protest that the Talking Heads was raunchy I adjudged"

Tell them you play the harpsichord. Until the day you had performance in Berlin and you dig a big hole in front of De koonings photo.

5. Whisper in the gallery. Talking loud makes you look stupid.

6. The look. A must.

There are three types of artists.
A. The French type. (black head to toe)
B. Art Brutes (black but conjointly with ripped jeans. paint, paint, everywhere a.k.a. Jackson Pollock)
C. French gay (stripes black and gay)

7. Hold a wine if you are in the category A. Hold a beer if you are in the category B. hold a rose if you are in the category C.

8. Pry into the works. Make a survey on what they think about the work and use it. Collectivity can make you famous.

9. Loiter. Dont smile. Nod. Dont smile.

*When a photographer takes your photo drink your wine/beer you will definitely look much better. If you are in the category C. bite your rose.

10. Statistics: 90% of the people inside an art exhibit are Art groupies, more or less like you. so don't be nervous. Enjoy.

I'm learning to breathe again

formatting:

I don't know if all these things will come back and huant me. I'm not a good person, let alone say that i'm a perfect. But i know i'm nice to the ones that care and love me for who i am. i'm still a human after-all. i err.

Sometimes, during my growing part, i wish/hope that i get less personal attacks and more true friends around. I'm pretty upset these few weeks. Actually, come to think of it, i've been very very drained the last 3 months.

i felt pretty aimless in life. I used to have all these 'big' plans and the dreams that i'm working towards. Nowadays, i seem to be so life-less and so dishearted in doing certain work. i don't know what happen to me.

i've not been sharing much of my personal life to anyone for a long long time. I meant real deep personal matters. i found out that a group of friends have betray me, real bad gossips went around. Ya, i know i'm not a good person, i do speak of lies, but i also know that the friendship that we hold, i treat it genuinely.

What bullshit on "what are friends for?", rot in hell i say. Friends bitch about each other, i jolly well do know that pretty clear. BUT they don't back-stab and spread gossips and add new interesting things. i'm disappointed.

The woman that i loved, yes, you trusted me with so many matters, things, secrets. But for sure I LOVE YOU so much that i lost track of what i'm doing. i no longer know whether am i doing that because i wanted so badly to see the changes that you can made or for the sake of being so right that you love me.

You said that i always leave you when you're about to make changes. How about the fact that whenever i said that i wanted to leave you then you realised that you need to change?! We fought this battle for so long. i'm so numb now. So, forget about it. You still don't know me after-all. You're just about you.

Thanks for making those statments. I'm really touched. You should know who i'm refering to. You & I really repel. Just accept that fact, alright. And thanks for being who you're. It really matters a lot to me now. Thank you.

Hi. I am Ellen. Pleased to meet you.

ZoukOut:A Dance Music Festival

SAT 10 DEC 2005///SILOSO BEACH SENTOSA///8PM-8AM:

ZoukOut Singapore's definitive & cekebrated dance music festival is back for its 5th year. Bringing Zouk's spirit and energy to the great outdoors and an even wider audience, ZoukOut will be staged at Siloso Beach on Sentosa from dusk to dawn(8pm-8am); transforming the sandy landscape into a magical clubland, complete with four stages featuring a broad spectrum of genres including house, tribal, progressive, techni, trance, electro, indie, hip hop and of course the very popular Mambo Jambo. In addition to the stellar lineup, it will be non-stop entertainment with free carnival rides, interactive action games, quirky palm & card readings, live art demonstrations, exclusive RESFEST screening and much more.

Cultural and language barriers aside, ZoukOut is THE dance festival that truly brings clubbers from all of Asia together under the common denominator of a feel-good, exuberant experience. It is this dynamism that has made ZoukOut the 'MUST GO' dance festival for tens of thousands of music fans from all over the region.

I'll be there. So i hope to see you there!

more bah(s)

i need tons of rest:

I was at Sha-shine's place last night and was damn tired from two nights-out continuously. It's just plain madness with this endless-bottomless stomach of mine. I'm not sure whether am i tired or just a psycho side of mine. I will have running nose straight after drinking beer. And my nose will itch. Irritatingly-itchy! haha!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY. feli dear.I hope for a happy life ahead of you. And our friendship shall be extended till the day when the Sun no longer rise in the east and set in the west. I love you, girl. I also hope in the love-life of yours, it will flourish like yourself.

I was chattin with Luke[formly known as Jake], Rach knows this story. I was telling him that i'm so tired that i wished someone could just kill me and let me have an eternal sleep. heh. I was holding Ashley and well, he asked me to steal her and Rach will be glad to kill me with no questions asked.

Oh! i really have to emphasize, i'm so proud of myself. i caught two suspense-horror movies today! Saw 2 & Constantine. It wasn't easy. i have Rach to thank for again. IF I'M GOING TO HAVE NIGHTMARES. FRIEND(S),LOVER(S),SOUL-MATE(S),DARLING(S),DEAR(S), PLEASE GO AND HUANT RACHEL GOH IN HER DREAMS. THANK YOU SO SO VERY MUCH.

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GEEZ! IF ONLY I KNEW WHAT HAPPEN LAST NIGHT!

HELL, IT MUST HAVE BEEN!

The Biased side of Jean Baudrillard

Jean Baudrillard’s book Simulacra and Simulations describes a world in which materialist cultures destroy what is real. The Simulacra is a system of people who purposely surround themselves in hyper reality or “the simulation of something which never really existed.”

People use the movie ‘matrix’ to do an example on it. The whole sequence on real and un-real. The truth being define and un-told. The Matrix develop the idea that the apparently real is nothing more than a simulation.

So, we juggle between the stable idea of reality. Is it real or matrix? I was flipping through endless researches and the ‘matrix’ word kept coming out. I guess no harm in peeping on it.

The funny thing was I realised how much I love/hate that movie. You can’t blame people for saying that love and hate, they’re just a mere thin line next to one another.

The more I read ones’ essay the more I got blurred. The culture differences that wave the lines between facts and surreal, between information and entertainment, and of course through propaganda, it involves the politics.

The public gets the influence by these Simulations and Simulacra which led them to get involve with the activities that these ‘vibes’ are releasing.

P/S: i wanted to add a few more lines to scold my lecturer. but then, i had some warnings from friends. So, i better be nice.

i am me.

i:

i
was
stripped
naked
today.

Love is Foolish

A fool:

What is being-in-love like?

Just two people being happy together?
A soul-mate?
A smile that sparks your every morning?

i though you're supposed to get shot by an arrow or something, but the rest of is isn't supposed to be so painful... it still does hurt... does it?

i guess it's a risk that everyone should take and enjoy that path.

it's fun.

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Dear Ms. Erotic,

she suffers from multitude of bizaare significant distress, somehow arguably distinct similarity with iconic personalities like jesus christ, hitler and vivienne westwood.

the pattern of signals resonates as:

a. delusion of grandeur
b. jerusalem syndrome
c. folie deux
d. clinical lycanthropy
e. Capgras delusion

unlikely held with excessive convictions subsequently not necessarily erroneous hence I must say an existence of nature, I will put on constant strain to reasonable love and understanding.

I love you. shut up and kiss me now.

Sincerely,
Ellen