what is wrong and what is right in a relationship?

another sleepless night. 
maybe it is a good thing. 
i'm need to get used to waking up early.

last night, i had a spring of hope that she might be back in my life.
this morning, i woke up, i realised, should i even be thinking of this just to make myself feel better or pin on some hopes when she does not even know what she wants.

when we are having our post breakup talk, she asked me what is love.
i told her, love is when i see someone that reminds you, i thought of you.
love is when she is in need of you, you do whatever you can to support the one.
to me, at least, love conquers all. i know, there is the bread and love part. 

maybe friends are right, her expectations and mine are different.
friends told me that we are too similar.
so i should find someone that is opposite of me?

is there even a 2nd chance in relationship?
maybe she did hint me or i just turn a deaf ear on it.
where is my second chance?

i have a devil and angel in my head and heart.
one told me to forget about her, i find someone better.
one told me that i might still have a chance with her.

i am really going crazy at this moment.
i know i will collapse. 
have not been eating, just pure drinking.

but i told myself this act of foolish-ness should stop.
i know i do not like myself this way. 

i will prove to myself i can do it. 
and she will regret the day that she end it with me.