it got me.
deeply:
The last few days got me thinking on alot of stuffs. My school, my emotions, my family, my friends... i've to admit i'm SUPER lazy now. With regards to anything... i want/wish to explain why but i feel that my life has reached a point that it's rejecting EVERYTHING!
I always thank God for alot of things [i do!]. I know i'm lucky, okay, i do abuse my luck at times and try to push a little further on it. But the fact that i know and i appreaciate! My social life still pretty much the same. The motto: Drink and have fun.
I met this girl. Normally, i would try my best to understand and open myself up to another stranger. But with her, it's all jokes and i listen. Not that i don't listen in the past, it's more like a 1 way than a 2-way relationship for now. It's bad. i can't help it. Re-issue a new heart to me then.
Her eyes. Big. Intense. I adore the dimple[s]. The smile. The piercing she had on her collar bone. [Did i mention Rach find it very sexy? haha.] Her strong features... ok, i'm not talking about some apes here. She's authentic. She speaks with the strong English accent. Smells wonderfully gorgeous. The scent suits her. Do i sound like i'm crazily over her? I should be BUT i'm not.
It explains: The sad case of ELLEN. I'm not jaded. I'm not heart broken. I'm not, not moving on. I'm plain lazy. I went out with her a couple of times [okok, 2 times.], she's she. She, we talked about everything, anything. She, we msn and sms to each other. From studio apartments to ex[s] to drinks to family[?]... like i mention, she talks and i listen.
Sad Ellen is being very surface about this whole issue. I met up with her few hours ago. We[Ashley, Xinning, Gerkiel, Rachel, She & me] went drinking at Indo Chine. She being she bought my usual sweets for me. Two packs! She being she respected me. Certain times, i do not want to share my past, she did not probe. She being she ... got me ... thinking about her...
My mind is replaying every moment of the scene when she mention that she did something to her wonderful self. I wasn't scare nor was i taken aback. NOONE is perfect and i apply that to God as well. She wasn't proud of it, i know. Because i saw. I felt it at that moment.
One thing for sure, she had me thinking about her more than usual... =)
The last few days got me thinking on alot of stuffs. My school, my emotions, my family, my friends... i've to admit i'm SUPER lazy now. With regards to anything... i want/wish to explain why but i feel that my life has reached a point that it's rejecting EVERYTHING!
I always thank God for alot of things [i do!]. I know i'm lucky, okay, i do abuse my luck at times and try to push a little further on it. But the fact that i know and i appreaciate! My social life still pretty much the same. The motto: Drink and have fun.
I met this girl. Normally, i would try my best to understand and open myself up to another stranger. But with her, it's all jokes and i listen. Not that i don't listen in the past, it's more like a 1 way than a 2-way relationship for now. It's bad. i can't help it. Re-issue a new heart to me then.
Her eyes. Big. Intense. I adore the dimple[s]. The smile. The piercing she had on her collar bone. [Did i mention Rach find it very sexy? haha.] Her strong features... ok, i'm not talking about some apes here. She's authentic. She speaks with the strong English accent. Smells wonderfully gorgeous. The scent suits her. Do i sound like i'm crazily over her? I should be BUT i'm not.
It explains: The sad case of ELLEN. I'm not jaded. I'm not heart broken. I'm not, not moving on. I'm plain lazy. I went out with her a couple of times [okok, 2 times.], she's she. She, we talked about everything, anything. She, we msn and sms to each other. From studio apartments to ex[s] to drinks to family[?]... like i mention, she talks and i listen.
Sad Ellen is being very surface about this whole issue. I met up with her few hours ago. We[Ashley, Xinning, Gerkiel, Rachel, She & me] went drinking at Indo Chine. She being she bought my usual sweets for me. Two packs! She being she respected me. Certain times, i do not want to share my past, she did not probe. She being she ... got me ... thinking about her...
My mind is replaying every moment of the scene when she mention that she did something to her wonderful self. I wasn't scare nor was i taken aback. NOONE is perfect and i apply that to God as well. She wasn't proud of it, i know. Because i saw. I felt it at that moment.
One thing for sure, she had me thinking about her more than usual... =)
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